I know that many of you are wondering where did Gina Cloud go? I’ve wondered that often myself the last six months.
As some of you know, I ended my 3 1/2 year long radio show, Redefining W.O.M.A.N. ,in December 2009. I needed to let go, to open the space for something new, and I felt, as we often do in life, stagnant. I felt I was playing it small by being the disembodied voice on the radio. I felt I needed to ‘come out,” not of the closet, LOL, but out of my shell, my chrysalis, my cocoon. Some even thought I was crazy to let the show go. It was hugely successful. But success to me is never measured externally. My inner life is always my rating system.
And, as often happens is life, your plans don’t mean squat to the Universe. Instead of emerging, I went deeper into the Earth of my Self and discovered a profound place of stillness, of peace, of daily joy. Not without some depression and doubt, but it is part of the process and is meant to be embraced, as it serves us more profoundly than this Western culture would have us believe.
Not too many months ago, I realized that I’ve spent so much time in the last 10 years working on what’s to come, and what I want to create in my life, in my work, that I’ve been missing the daily opportunities to experience joy and to be present NOW. And so I made a new Declaration of Independence, one that truly liberated me, and declared that from that moment of realization on, I would strive to live for daily joy, instead of the joy I thought I’d find after I did this, that and the other on the list of goals and to-do’s.
An incredible kind of peace emerged from me almost immediately after that declaration. It took the form of inner peace and stillness. Less running around and urgency to “accomplish.” I traded so much doing, for really just BEING.
At first I thought I was in a phase, just going through something and that the old me, the gotta do this, that and the other Gina, was just on vacation somewhere and would return soon enough to get the job(s) done. So I said, ok, I’ll just wait for her to come back and then we’ll start making things happen.
I realized the other day that she’s not coming back. And good riddance, as my grandmother used to say!
I’ve entitled this “Emerging from My Cocoon” because I now know that this is the new AND IMPROVED me. I am now standing FULLY in my yin, in the feminine energy I love so much to be in, talk and write about. It’s a place of profound magnetism. Instead of making things happen, now I’m ALLOWING them to happen. Feel the difference? One is responsive, one is generative. One is masculine; one feminine.
So now, I’m ready to be in that allowing, and to create from a place of responsiveness. I’m starting up my podcast next month, August 2010, and the show will be called simply, The Gina Cloud Show, as I’m going to include men and anything else that my heart desires to share and express with you all.
My men’s work has also evolved to include one-on-one coaching (via skype if you’re anywhere not near me) and weekly Q&A sessions for no more than six men at $40.00 a session. You can check it out here:
If you’re not familiar with my websites, you can visit them by clicking here, (this one is flash, and like a beautiful woman, takes a little while to get ready, so be patient!) and here. This one is HTML.
For those of you just discovering me, please check out my book, W.O.M.A.N., A New Defintion on Amazon. You can also read about it and the foundation that gets 50% of my royalties, which is devoted to AIDS orphaned children, The Jacaranda Foundation.
For those of you new to my old show, or fans who want to revisit the over 125 episodes, you can find them on iTunes. Just type in Gina Cloud. And yes, I’m on FaceBook and Twitter, and YouTube as well.
So I’m back, and I feel renewed and improved. Remember that it’s good to get off the treadmill of life and the constant doing, especially if you are a woman. But we ALL need renewal, regeneration, recharging, which ultimately leads to a rebirthing. And as always, I find my Self, my center, my truth in the darkness that feels like the womb. So if you are feeling stuck, stagnant, joyless in your life, maybe it’s time to retreat, to recede, to withdraw into Self. And just wait for the magic of you to emerge.
With love and blessings,